Sigh

Christmas and the holidays can bring major up and down emotions for all. I almost fell into the trap …

Christmas — we were missing 5 people.. due to illness and last minute work. I had a few moments where I was teary and mad at the world and THEN

… I dragged myself back into the moment. Thank GOD I have the ability to cherish what I have.. can you imagine the moments I would have missed had I languished in what coulda woulda shoulda?? Life is precious, short and a journey. I LOVE the journey. Don’t get me wrong, I have my “woe is me” moments… but my biggest gift to myself this Christmas was being grateful for the NOW.

Coming to that awareness has been a journey for me — one that I still have

n’t mastered but it’s on my 2014 list and probably will be on all future lists. I read. I read a lot! If I don’t have time to physically sit down with a book .. I will listen to a book. In my car, while I am getting dressed, cooking .. you name it! It started as an attempt to “find” myself .. now I know that you are always learning and evolving .   I am always growing.  The minute I think I don’t need it, don’t have time for it, know it all … is the minute I regress back to “woe is me”   THAT will never happen. I can always learn something new – “teach me” I say!

If you were in my home before our kitchen remodel .. you know the extent that I take that! I had words on the walls .. READ, PRAY, LOVE, FORGIVE, HUG , FAMILY… I have dry erase markers near any mirror – random quotes that catch my eye will be written there. My husband and I don’t buy each other gifts at Christmas .. typically we will take a trip together instead (TIME is our most precious gift to each other) This year he said he just HAD to gift me some socks he saw while working in St.Louis. The toes.. I look down and see “I am awesome” .

Be awesome – It’s a choice…